Your world or mine?

Something changes when you become a parent. Well lets face it, everything changes but what I mean is, something changed in me tonight as I cradled a tired little Toria in my arms before setting her gently in her crib. I felt as if I owned the world or rather I suddenly felt weighed down with responsibility for the state of the world. My sense of self shifted from living within this world of ours to building this world of ours. I'm no longer looking out for and dodging landmines I'm now challenged with finding and removing them. Knowing this is an impossible task, I feel a bit at a loss... like I've let her down already. I felt the same way last night when I caught the BBC world news. This is the down side to what I was feeling in my post from Oct 12 '09 "Expecting the much anticipated expected". Back then I wrote "I love, day to day, differently then I did. Just a subtle and slight difference. Just a little more fully. I love just a little more fully." I guess what I'm trying to explain (on a lot less sleep)... I love, day to day, differently then I did. It's so much more full which in turn makes it worrisome.